April 19, 2012
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Worried.
Ahh. So sad/worried. My baby Stuart (Chinese dwarf hamster that I've had for ~4 months now) is sick, but I'm not sure what's wrong with him. I thought he was too hot at first, so I tried to cool him down, but then I realized that's not the problem. I was going to bring him to the vet @ PetSmart (where I got him from), but when I called them up, those scamming niggas said to see a hamster costs fuckin' $79.95. WTF man, Stuart himself only costs like $15 or so. Mad rip off or. Ugh, but I don't want him to die either, so I googled up hamster illnesses and I'm debating between which one of these two to diagnose him with: cold/influenza or aspergillus fungus. I'm such a bad pet owner :[ I'm not even sure what his symptoms are because I don't even spend that much time playing with him T___T The only symptoms that I'm sure of are lethargy and lack of appetite. All he seems to do is curl up and sleep in his food bowl on top of his food, heart beating so hard that his entire body pulses. And even if I do narrow it down to one of those two illnesses, in worst case scenario, I'd have to bring him to the vet anyway. I'm gonna be so sad if he dies. FFS I should've changed his bedding more often /cry I know he's just a hamster and I can always buy another one, but like I've said before, I get attached to things and I hate the idea of replacing something with a new one cause it's not going to be the same. And it doesn't even make sense to me as to why I'm feeling so upset about this, since I don't play with him much anyway. I just thought that if Stuart ever dies, it'll be cause of old age and not cause of me neglecting him like the previous hamster. /sigh I guess I'll just have to wait it out and hope he survives. DON'T LEAVE ME STUART!!!
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God, I'm having such a fucking shitty day. It started out great and I was in a good mood, thinking about how school's almost over and how well I'm doing this semester. But since when do good things last for me? oya, that's right. Never. Come home and realized that Stuart's not just suffering from the heat, but is actually sick. Then I have to deal with my mom being a fucking bitch playing favorites. She never fucking admits it, but it's so fucking OBVIOUS she favors Danny over me. I'm not even saying that I wasn't wrong, but when Danny does something wrong, she's all "don't be unhappy, mommy will handle this". And if I do something wrong? "WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU LISTEN TO ME BEFORE? LOOK WHAT YOU DID." I'm so fucking sick of this shit. I wish I didn't fucking listen to her. I wish I went to another school and dormed instead. Why the fuck did I stay in the city, living in this hellhole? I so fucking regret it right now.
Comments (4)
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Awn, but you're doing your first diagnosis...even if its on a hamster. So good for you (?).
As for dorming, you could move out you know. I know peeps who are sharing rooms with other people, and its actual renting out. Not just college dorming. Trust me, college dorming throws you off a bit because you can't bring all your stuff. And then you gotta account for your roommate. But moving out in truth will be very hard for you.
And why the hell do you only have a week left?!
@TheYellowChick - Correction: I have 2 weeks left. And it's so heart wrenching to see him so tired and not feeling well. :[ Surprisingly enough, my brother feels worse about it than me. He keeps saying "omg mom, I don't want to look at Stuart. He's making me depressed. I can't stand to see him like that. I miss the sound of him running on the exercise wheel." I must admit, I'm surprised and I don't see this side of him a lot. Should I take him to the vet? : $80 man. That's 5 other hamsters, y'know? But at the same time, I hate the idea of letting him suffer and die.
But you know what the worst part is? I think I might've given him the cold by accident cause I'm sick now. I wasn't aware that he might catch it and now I can't even recall if I touched him after I got sick but before he got sick. Ugh, curse my bad memory. Stupid PetSmart woman told me "o I think he's just hot" when I described the symptoms to her. Now I find out he has a cold, so everything I did before was counterproductive and I probably made it worse. -_-
(pats your back) I wish the best for Stuart and may he recover.